Fool!

Greetings~

It's like 11.48 p.m. now. I'm listening to those videos in YouTube. Darn they all sound so good, I'm addicted to them. So, I decided to download those videos and convert 'em to mp3 format. They sound so alive, with no editing and all. Would be good for "original" ringtone. I hate it when I heard someone else use the same ringtone as mine. I just, don't like it.

So, today I went to the JJ with friends, job-hunting. Filled in some forms here and there, talked to the workers bla3 and all. Let's just pray that someone wants to hire me. I don't want to get my brain all freezed up. Need some new environment. Sigh

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Well, that's not what I want to write about here. It's about what happened yesterday. Went to some place, met someone, and about to cry when he told me something. I'm actually going to suffer for the rest of my life now. My 11 years of hope just got crashed in a second. I was told when I was 6 that when I finished school, I might be able to be normal again. As normal as I was when I was born. But the, the truth came splashing me. Only God knows how I feel that time. Just because of some never-ending hatred, I got to suffer the consequences. I was an innocent toddler for God sake! Don't I deserve to be normal? Don't my family deserve to have good times?

I don't know why but people just love to hurt others. Whether the straightforward way, or the, not straighforward way. Why can't they just accept everyone for who they are, or for who they are to you and your loved ones. I mean, it won't hurt, for God sake. I just can't stand it anymore. Time to time, I don't even have any love to them. Yes, I know who they are and I'm supposed to love them but fuck, I won't! God, please forgive me for this, but I don't think I'm able to forgive them. Not now, not until they stop what they are doing and apologise to us. For all those things that made us suffer, made SOMEONE suffer! That someone had to face all the embarassment one could have, just because of jealousy, satisfaction that they could not have. I'm just so darn pissed! What I can do is just to pray for our safety, pray that it will all stop, pray so that those people will get what they deserve, much worse than what we had to suffer. Shit I'm so emo right now.

I know that everything happen for a reason. Yes. And I also realise that without God's permission, it won't happen. This maybe just a test to my family. I know that. It's just that, I can't bear to know that, I can't do anything to the sinners, though they are right in front of me. I couldn't possibly accuse them, I have no solid proof, but I know they're the ones who did all that.
Shit!

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p/s : Let's just ignore the cursing and all. I know it's mild, but heh, just ignore it. Oh and I won't answer any questions related to this. Just some of my thoughts and feelings. Mind my grammar.

Short

Herm

Sudah lame tak menulis di sini.
Rasa rindu? Oh tidak.
Tapi, kadang-kadang tu, ada juga mendapat ilham untuk menulis. Cuma [seperti biasa] bila dah tiba masa nak menulis, ilham-ilham tu semua, poof hilang.
So, eh jadi, setiap kali, terhasillah posts yang membosankan.

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Ok, enough of that.

So, I want to write something about what I did these few days.

Kembali ke Bahasa Melayu.

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Pada Sabtu 20-12-2008, kami sekeluarga pergi ke Port Dickson [lama tak pergi], ada somewhat reunion. Sekolah ayah aku la. Diorang buat reunion satu batch, which consists of only 5 classes [sikit gila!]. Plus, hanya 30 family SAHAJA yang datang. XD Tidak mendapat sambutan.

Ok. Di sana, not so much fun. Kecuali masa mandi-manda [seronok! tapi dah gelap T.T] and masa buat flying-fox. Tak scary sangat, in fact, tak langsung! Tapi maybe sebab talinya pendek je [kot]. So, biasa-biasa sahaja. Dahlah tak ada kawan. Sebenarnya ada, tapi pabila keseganan menguasai, diri ini lebih rela bersendirian [ayat tak boleh blah]. Overall, biasa sahaja.

So, kami cekaut [kahkah] dan bertolak ke Selangor. Seperti biasa, kami ke Puchong, yang lebih kurang tidak rumah kami di sana [miahaha]. Jadi, kami menjalankan aktiviti yang sama jika ke sana [tidak perlu dinyatakan]. Lebih kurang 3 hari jugalah kami berada di sana, dan selama 3 hari jugalah aku merana kebosanan. Thank god ade kucing-kucing yang sangat comel! Boleh main-main, warghhh comel! Plus, ada seekor mak kucing ni, baru bawa balik anak-anak kucing yang lagi kecik dari tapak tangan aku [tapak tangan aku kecil]! Wahh comel giler!! Mata dengan telinga diorang pun x buka lagi. So darn cute! Masa tu pun, tiada severe allergies. Sangat ajaib. Apa lagi, bantai la main kucing! xD Did I mention that the cats [and kittens] there are cute? So cute!! Tapi, aku lebih suka main dengan Mimi, kucing yang boleh dikatakan royal di situ. Relax je. Comel!

Tak tau namanya

New-born kittens

Black and White

Mimi, the royal~

One of the three~

Tambah tolak darab bahagi, baliklah Johor. Bila dah balik, apa lagi, on laptop, terus on9. Then, melangok in front of this thingy. Sampailah sekarang. Woosh~

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Har, sudahlah. Malas nak menaip lagi.
Chiow~
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p/s : Sesiapa yang sudi untuk spend RM80 for me, silakan. I want that handbag. T.T Tak terfikirlah pula untuk snap gambar. Hmm

Out of boredom

Tag from Faten

1. Do you think you're hot?
>> Nope

2. Upload your favourite picture of you!



3. Why do you like that picture?
>> Because it's a new picture.

4. When was the last time you ate pizza?
>> The last time I did.

5. The last song you listened to?
>> Nothing.

6. What are you doing right now besides this?
>> Nothing again.

7. What name would you prefer besides yours?
>> Other name.

People i tag
[Just to fill in]
1) Yan
2) Has
3) Faten
4) Hakim
5) Faha

8. Who is number 1?
>> Yan

9. Number 3 is having a relationship with?
>> Nashru Hakim

10. Say something about number 5?
>> Ex-classmate

11. How about number 4?
>> She eh he's a guy xD

12. Who is number 2?
>> Has

Shocking Truth! [Yeah right]

Well, today I'll be writing in English. As no one is reading my junks, so I don't care if there is any grammatical mistakes and so on. Let's just hope that it is read-able.


OK. So today, I came across this website, YouthSays. From this site, I came to know about this youth gathering [sort of] that's going to be held on 9-11 of January 2009. I wasn't so excited actually until I got to know that there will be a photography competition! The thing that excites me the most is that, you get to pair up with a person, and compete with each other. That sounds fun! Well, I know that it's a miracle if I could proceed to the second round but still it's worth a shot. Plus quite good experience too as I get to compete on the spot, unlike any other typical photography contest where you must submit your photos with all the rules and regulations blablabla. Sometimes I wonder, do they even get my photos? You can't trust snail mail these days. It might just end up somewhere else, or maybe after the due date. Oh my, forget it! Now, I need to think of how am I going to go there, as the event is in KL and the fact that I'm staying here in JB. Maybe I can just travel by bus, ask my cousin to pick me up and stay at her house. That's not the problem. The thing is, I need to find a friend to go there with. It would be awkward if I ask my cousin to accompany me. That's a BIG no! sigh Who wants to go with me?


From that website too, I got to know that there is much more of photography than photography. You get what I mean right? Don't get confused. Ha-ha Well, there are lomo, holga and so on. Being curious, as Aten did mention about lomography, so I googled it up. I got tons of results [as usual], typically I right-clicked some of the link and open in new tabs. I love to use tabs! Ha-ha I don't know why some [most] of my friends love to open loads of windows. I mean, it should be enough windows in your house that you don't have to make more in your computer! Ha-ha Well, they can do anything that they like. Back to the topic. One of the links that I clicked was from wikipedia [of course]. However, being typically detailed, I was a bit [SO] confused. Too many alphabets! Same applies to other websites. In the end, I ended up sticking to this website called PhotoKaki. It's something like a forum. So, I signed up and introduced myself [in the Introduction Section]. Then, I decided that I want to read up all the posts, including the previous posts. I did, but haven't fully-finished of course. I just signed up few hours ago for god sake. There, I learned so many things. Things that I can actually apply. Not like the tips in the magazines, all of them requires money! I'm unemployed and broke! I don't even get my allowance anymore! Urghh


Well, that's it I think. I've actually wasted my time to write all these junks. Ain't wasting any time no more. Ha-ha



Notes : I don't know when am I going to successfully turn this blog into a gallery. As far as you guys [maybe just me] can see, no photos have been uploaded yet. I'm just, lazy.


p/s: Went to a friend's house today. It was awkward, but it made me wonder, how's mine going to be? How's my friends' going to be? Quite curious as I think deeper.

Toodles~

Warisan Seni

Yeah, secara harfiahnya, aku bercadang untuk mengambil banyak-banyak gambar hari ini. Memandangkan, hari ini aku bercadang nak pergi ke satu pameran called Warisan Seni or something. Dah bersungguh-sungguh dah ni. Bila dah sampai je situ, I was like, "What?! This is not pameran! This is jualan!"

Yeah, it was something like JUALAN Warisan Seni. Mereka patut print tu as the title di brochure. Sangat sengal. Thank God I didn't bring my D-SLR, kalau x, rasa macam membazir tenaga. Bak kata kakak promoter tadi, kita perlu menyumbang sesuatu untuk Badak Sumatera seperti tidak membazir tenaga, air dan sebagainya. You know what I mean. So, dari Persada, kami meneruskan perjalanan ke City Square [as expected]. Aku dah naik muak pergi ke situ. Dah berapa kali aku pergi situ. It's like, the third time in this week! Itu tak masuk minggu lepas. Urghh Oh well, semasa lepak di Roibo, kahkahkah ade la "Bunga-bunga" EC datang ke Roibo. Seorang tu aku kenal, budak Form 3, Imran kot nama dia. Seorang lagi itu, tak kenal. Tetapi menurut kata Kim and Arif, yang seorang lagi tu Form 5. Mula-mula Arif yang ternampak mereka. Dia nampak terus tersedak. Hakim pun pusing lalu tersedak juga. Berbekalkan rasa ingin tahu yang kuat, Aku, Yan dan Aten pun memandanglah ke arah pandangan mereka tadi. Agak terkejut la juga. Ahahaa The lembut part is "Ok", but yang si Imran tu pakai shorts yang Chinese girls selalu pakai! I was like “Omigoat!” So nampak x elok! And blablabla malas nak tulis Oh oh and we went to the arcade. Finally dapat satu patung after 3 percubaan. Seronok! Ahahaa Then, Kim and Arif main some made in Japan game. Funny! Game die aneh-aneh. Hahaa and blablabla again

Oh well, malas mahu menulis lagi. Sekian

p/s : I did edit some colours and fonts and so on, but then some error [more like a mistake] occured and ruined it all! As I'm not a rajin person to begin with, I'll just post it like this! Sayonara

Nasib Yang Malang

Sesungguhnya setiap orang, whathefexx!

Hari ni naseb ku malang. Bukan hari ni je, aku ni memang senantiasa malang. Sesungguhnya beberapa orang rakan-rakanku mengetahui ape yang aku lalui ari nih. Sangat sengal kalau dipikirkan. Tapi xyah ar nak ckp kat sini kan. Buat malu je. sigh

Grr sememangnya aku ni jenis orang yang x suke nak menulis. Td mase tgh mandi tu, macam banyak je idea nak tulis. Skang xde plak idea nye. Same ar macam time pekse, tgk soalan je macam2 idea dtg dlm pale otak [slalunye berdasarkan cerita2 yg telah dibaca atau ditonton], tp bile time nak tulis, ckit je yg kuar. Agak kasihankan? Yeah, I know.

Sekian.

P/S : Kepada sesiapa yang menjumpai barangku yang hilang itu, sila kembalikan ke alamat yang tertera. Terima kasih. Oh well, xde sape bace nih, so, kepada ehemehem yang tidak ku nampak, kalau rajin, tolong la carikan. Beramal jariah la ye. Haha

Permulaan

Oh well
sebagai permulaannya
mulai hari ini
terbentuklah sebuah blog
yg akan dijadikan sebagai galeri
[ye ye je]

SEKIAN