Rindu punya pasal. (Panjang dan kurang bermakna, unless to Pakcik and I)

Greetings.

Okay this time I want to make a very lovey-dovey post, tahap muntah darah punya lovey-dovey. Okay no, entry gedik lah senang cerita.

Yesterday (it's 17th April 2011, 12.58 am), I sat for my MUET, for the second time while it's a first time for Uncle. Okay, actually I like to go to exams together with him, semangat lain macam, itu yang ECO test 1 dapat boleh tahan walaupun tak baca buku. But he begs to differ. He felt that my existence in the same examination room made him all nervous and distracted. That's why his marks for ECO Test 1 and Test 2 agak biasa-biasa. Urgh! He was supposed to get an at least A-! Grr!

For those who knew the existence of Uncle and I in campus might probably agree 100% to this. Uncle and I are like inseparable. Boleh kata hari-hari kitorang jumpa. Paling koman pergi makanlah. Kami pun aktif benda yang sama kan, so, macam selalulah sama-sama. 

Dulu masa Part 2, Part 3, selalu jumpa sebab hal Taekwondo, ada kerja. Supposedly boleh je agih-agih kat orang lain, tapi tah, buat berdua je. Intentionally ke unintentionally? Unintentionally at first, sebab dulu antara exco-exco, kenal dia je, sebab kami sama-sama budak band kan. Tapi lama-lama, Haha! Makin lama makin rapat hahh. 

Dulu bukan main ber"kau aku" dengan dia. Tapi tiba-tiba tah macam mana last sem ber"awak saya" pulak. Mula-mula buat-buat macam main-main, dalam phone guna "saya awak", tapi bila jumpa depan-depan, "kau aku". Bukan apa, dah terbiasa. -.- Pastu tiba-tiba ada one night dia mention benda tu? Tanya kenapa dalam phone lain kat luar lain? Hah apa nak jawab? ;P

Actually I first had an interest in him back when we were in Part 1. But then, he seems so out of my league, oh well, you know I'm the nerdy kind of girl, shabby-looking and so on. The only plus point that I had was that I'm quite good in my studies. Well, it's not really a plus point you see, guys don't seem to like girls with brain. -.-

So, I just kept what I felt to my heart's content. Not a single person knew about it. To top it all, after LIBB (I think), I got to know that he had a girlfriend. Okay fine. Backed off, I did. (Konon) -.-

Last day LIBB

Oh tapi kan, masa Dinner Brass Band, dia ada bagi bunga. ;) Orang lain minta dia tak bagi, he gave it to me! ;)

Bersama bunga yang Pakcik bagi. ;)

Masa dinner Brass Band Part 1 ;)

In Part 2, well, let's just say that I got over him, kind of. No, I just forget about him. Takde pape pun kan, so

macam senang lah. Earlier in the semester, I asked him to join Taekwondo. Actually tak pernah ingat dia budak Taekwondo, until dia mentioned it to me. Ada sorang senior, apa nama lupa dah, invited me to join untuk buat show masa MPKP. Segan nak pergi sorang-sorang, so ajaklah dia. After that, kami pun mula aktif Taekwondo, officially. Uncle pun ajak Syahir dan Amin join sekali.

Masa MPKP Part 2

MPKP Semester January-April 2010

Ada one time, Kelab Taekwondo ada buat satu camping, tarikhnya clash dengan event band. Masa tu budak KO kan, baru Part 2, so macam takut nak ponteng event band. So, awal-awal dah plan dengan Uncle, tak pergi camping, nak pergi event. Dia pun Drum Major kan, so kena ada lah. Tapi tuptup, event band cancelled last minute. And don't know how, Uncle dapat pergi camping. Last minute masuk, ganti Kak Fira kot. I asked Kak Haizun whether if it is okay for me to join, tapi Kak Haizun kata dah penuh. Sumpah sedih gila time tu! Untuk mengubati kesedihan, aku overnight di Melaka for the first time with Byha, Farah and Asyree.

Kami panjat kapal ni malam-malam buta. -.-

And then lepas camping, kami selalu jumpa. Sebab ada tournament di INTEC. My first tournament in UiTM Segamat! Tapi tournament ni, clash dengan camping band. Ah! Tak kira, sebab dulu band buat aku tak dapat pergi camping, so aku nak pergi tournament. Okay, motif tambahan, sebab Uncle bersungguh nak masuk tournament tu. Okay mana boleh lepaskan peluang! Haha!

Masa Part 2, I started to disclose my crush on him to few friends. Pija Kecik, Blupblup & Zira. But kept it all within ourselves though. Apart from the girls, the guys in Blupblup thought I was joking. Haha. And I had always asked Ayen to send my regards to Uncle every now and then in college. ;P

Towards the end of the semester, kami pun bertambah rapat. Sebab? The seniors appointed him to be the President of Taekwondo Club and me as the Secretary. Disebabkan dua-dua pun tak tahu menahu, so, kami saling bantu-membantu untuk menyiapkan segala paperwork. Itulah pemangkin ukhuwah kami.

Masa Part 2 pun, aku beria nak join Drum Battle sebab fikir yang dia akan join juga. Tapi tiba-tiba dia tak join pulak! Takpe lah, teman Zira, dia beria suruh aku masuk. So, aku pun join lah as one of the Colour Guards. ;)

Tapi good news was that, he got to tag along to Kelantan! Woot!!

The CG's plus Fitch

Jahat gila aku, masa akhir-akhir semester 2 tu, I was actually with Afiq. -.- I don't know how and why, but I just did. He was being so thoughtful and nice to me during that time, the time when I was having the friendship crisis. I hate it when it happens! -.-

Even though I was with Afiq, I couldn't bring myself to be all lovey-dovey with him. The relationship was just merely a status. The way I treated Afiq was not more than just friends, good friends.

Candid -.-

That's why, when I was busy with the drum battle trainings, I neglected him. So much! It's maybe due to  Uncle. Being close with him (work purposes), ignited the crush that I had on him. Ouh! Besides, he had once told me that he was single. Ingatkan ada girlfriend, rupanya dah takde. Itu yang tetiba nak balik tu.

But then, silly me. I was always so scared if he found out about it. So, I always act as if I don't care about him. Never did I show my interest towards him. Malu doh!

Naik Part 3, tak boleh nak dibendung lagi dah! Boleh kata tiap-tiap hari nak cerita pasal dia je kan. =.= Kecik lah jadi mangsa kena tadah telinga. Well, she was a good listener by the way. Semua cerita best, cerita tak best semua dia tau.

Ada one time, during August I think, I was feeling soo down because I heard a story about him. Masa tu Pija Kecik was not around, so tak tau nak cerita kat siapa. Tiba-tiba terjumpa Byha ngan Asyree kat uptown, hah amik kau terus cerita. Tak kesah ada Asyree time tu. -.- So, Asyree pun tiba-tiba ter tau.

And then, tiba-tiba dapat tau yang Asyree bagitau kat Uncle pasal my feelings. BOO!! -.- 

Ayen kot yang bagitau. And then lepas tu, Ayen ada cakap yang Uncle pun sebenarnya suka aku. Okay dah berbunga dah hati time tu, but tak sure. Jumbled up feelings. Kalau Uncle dah tau, and the feeling's mutual, kenapa dia tak kata apa-apa? Tapi dia macam banyak bagi signs. Ntahlah.

Uncle pulak time tu dah selalu macam kongsi-kongsi cerita, caring bagai. Macam bagi hint, tapi tak clear. Tak tau. Resah sungguh! -.-

Tapi masa tu, selalu sangat spend time dengan dia. Selalu sebab Taekwondo. Pergi tengok budak-budak grading, balik jalan kaki jauh-jauh pergi bus stop sebab nak pergi talk kat kampus. Jalan jauh-jauh, bonding moment kot. Haha.

Lepas tu, masa puasa, every night kitorang ada training, untuk tournament kat UKM. Fuh, makin lah rapat kan.

And then, masa puasa, dia macam ajak pergi Melaka. Okay first time pergi dengan dia, ada budak-budak Taekwondo sekali. Kak Mimi, Paan and Qila. But the whole perjalanan naik kereta, kitorang banyak berbual berdua kat depan, yang kat belakang banyak senyap je. 

Balik tu, kami lepak kat uptown. Dia konon beli untuk sahur, untuk senior lah apa lah. Time tu Syawal ada main gitar kat tepi. Okay sila bayangkan betapa best nya? Berbual, pastu ada orang main gitar, dua-dua minum milo ais.

Time tu banyak sangat benda yang dia cerita. Pasal Ain, pasal ex dia dulu. Aku? Tak ingat cerita apa, alah lagi pun aku mana pandai nak cerita-cerita ni. Dia ada cakap pasal Ain, dulu dia suka sangat kat Ain ni. Even dia ada girlfriend pun, dia still suka Ain. Sangat suka. Sanggup tuh tunggu, even Ain tu asyik tukar-tukar bf. Tak tau kenapa dia tak dapat nak masuk jarum, padahal diorang rapat sangat. And then, dia kata, masa tournament kat INTEC, dia ada jumpa Ain lepas tu ajak Ain tengok dia lawan. Tapi Ain tak datang. Dia kata since then, dia lost hope kat Ain. And dia kata dah boleh MOVE ON.

Okay, rasa macam tersentaplah dengar benda tu. Lepas tu, dia asyik tanya aku suka siapa time tu. Tanya tanya tanya tanya tanya tanya tak bosan asyik tanyaaa je.-.-

Takkanlah aku nak cakap yang aku suka dia depan-depan, segan mak oi! Hampir jugaklah nak cakap. Kalau dia keep on tanyaaa lagi, ya ampun memang tersembur. Nasiblah dah pukul 12, so semua kena balik. Tapi muka memang merahlah malam tu. Tapi tak nampak sangatlah.

Balik tu, memang gembira sangatlah! Terus lari balik kolej hah kau tak balik bilik lagi terus pergi bilik Pija Kecik nak cerita nih tak sabar! Kegembiraan melanda diri malam tu.

Tapi, esoknya, terus tak gembira. Sebab, tiba-tiba nampak status kat facebook yang dia sebenarnya ada girlfriend. Tak pernah clash okay? Since Form 5. Okay fine, pernah putus, tapi putus on putus on gitu lah.

Urgh! Seriously, malam tu dapat tau, sumpah rasa nak nangis. Tak pernah rasa macam tu. Tapi time tu aku tak pandai nangis, so I went to sleep. Sumpah awal gila tidur! I was supposed to be studying that night because esok malam aku ada Test 2 LAW. As a result, I failed my test. -.-

Ever since that, I tried to distance away from him. Tapi, agak gagal. Anddd Hafiz finally blew my secret. Well, Hafiz is a junior of mine, in Taekwondo. He got to know that I liked Fikri from his friends, a junior of mine in SAB, my college. Apparently, I couldn't keep my mouth shut to the Part 1's during orientation sessions. -.- Fine!

One night, after training, Hafiz said something to me, and I went histerical. And Fikri overheard it. Urgh! And they teased me all the way back to Sector C. I think I was so red as an apple! -.-

Fikri was feeling happy knowing that. Well, apparently he knew about it but he chose to not believe it, because he says that I didn't look like I had a crush on him. 

Whatever it was, it was too late. He had a girlfriend and I didn't want to break a girl's heart. Her gf, Sarah back then was a very cute, sweet, nice girl. And she loved him very much alright. So I told him to keep distance and not to contact each other very often anymore.

It's easier said than done.

Yes, we didn't manage to do it.

Instead, makin rapat adalahhhh. Lepas tu break Raya, hamboiii tak macam tiap-tiap malam nak Skype. Masa ni macam lupa dahh dia ada gf. -.- Malam Raya pun hahh amik kau gayut 5 jam tak hingat dunia kat kampung. Tak pernah kot aku gayut kat kampung. -.-

Masa Raya, dia ada mention dia dah break. Tapi kadang-kadang cerita dia tak synchronize. 

Sebab balik cuti Raya, ada tournament. Dia bagi fon suruh contact budak-budak. Nampak nama Sarah, baru lepas call malam semalam. -.-

Tapi buat-buat tak nampak. -.-

Masa tournament, kat UKM, oh well, macam biasalah. Fokus nak menang. Training je. Tapi kali ni dapat tunjuk ajar dari Uncle. Hoho. o.0

Oh, time tu, first day, terjatuh masa tendang. SAKIT SANGAT! Tutup mata, tahan sakit. Terasa ada orang nak angkat, tapi dengar suara Kak Fid marah cakap perempuan lah! Rasanya dia macam Uncle. I think it's Uncle.

Masa kat UKM, Uncle punya match masa first day. Sumpah excited gila tengok. Nak sangat dia menang. And dia menang first round. I went histerical you see. -.-

Tapi sorry lah Sayang, I didn't make it for my first round. Takut-takut lagi time tuh!

2 weeks after that, I went to Melaka with him. Just the two of us. On the 9th October 2010. Went for a movie & watched the sunset at Pantai Puteri. Supposedly we were to go to KL, he wanted to surprise his mother, as her birthday was on 10th of October. But some things happened and we didn't have enough time. So, pergi Melaka je lah dekat. That night, it changes all.

The next day, we were texting each other. And then he said that the date was somewhat cantik and why don't we make it special? And I can't remember much, but he did say this.

"Why don't you try by saying yes when someone asks you a question? For example, will you be someone special to me?"

Haha. Okay, what was he trying to say? Macam propose, tapi guna for example. Tak boleh blah. ;P
But then I didn't straight away answer it. Tunggu lama, cerita kat Kecik dulu. Ah tak tau nak jawab apa. Siap mula-mula jawab benda lain. -.- Sumpah natural spoiler. -.- Tapi at last jawab jugak yes. ;)

So yeah, I've been with him since 10th of October 2010. 

But we have been friends ever since July 2009. ;)

I remember the first argument that we had was that he questioned me for having two phone numbers. It was on Wednesday night, the first Brass Band meeting, when we were in Part ONE ;)

Sorry lah kalau saya ini bossy, gedik, mengada, cepat marah, kurang sabar, nak menang je. Saya tak buat dengan orang lain, saya macam tu dengan awak je, okay dengan family jugak. So kira saya dah anggap awak macam family lah gitu. ;P

Ah! Ini semua sebab Pakcik dah tidur dah sekarang ni. Tak tau nak buat apa. Tiba-tiba rasa all jiwang pulak kan. Rindu sangat! Dia sekarang kat Port Dickson. T.T

Ceh padahal siang tadi baru pergi amik MUET sesama. -.-

Gunung Arong.
Kitorang memang suka buat benda sama-sama. ;P

I love you Sayang.

But as I've mentioned to you, I love my family more~

But still, I love you~! ;)

*Sumpah panjang gila entri ni. -.-